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Not sure how to live in the now. Not sure why, but I bogged myself down into living in the past again; looking up exs from years gone by and now I'm feeling a bit melancholy. I'm tired. Tired of feeling like this when I think of girlfriends from time goes by. I'm so tired of it, but don't have one-frickin-clue of how I'm to correct this.
It's easier when I'm in a relationship, but with my life all topsy-turvey I'm not sure I'm in the best place to find someone. And no matter how horney I might be, I doubt a one-night-stand (or a one-month-stand) will do anything to help.
So I write this out to try to exorcise these feelings. I write in the hopes that my blah will pass as I commit these feelings and thoughts to the air.
I am happy that my last ex is doing what she wanted to and, apparently, doing it well. Kudos to her.
Ok. I feel better. Heh, I actually do. Got it out of my system.
Now for a bit of an update.
I'm in Norfolk and have been here since the beginning of Feburary. San Diego was nice and I learned alot in my class. I'm in another class and it's a hum dinger. Working hard at it though and hopefully I will make it through.
My class ends in May and I hope to take time off to go home to see my sister and niece. Then it's off to San Diego where I have to wait till they either fly me out to my ship or my ship returns to port.Current Mood:  melancholy |
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